I realized I haven't been back in a long time... like almost 6 months. And I was kind of really ok with that? I still am. But it feels good to be back and have a job so you don't get the awkward convo of:
"sooo whatcha been up toooo?"
"mmm just... still looking for a job cuz i suuuuck"
"haha... yeah it's rough"
"YEAH IT IS ROUGH OK YOU HAVE NO IDEA STAY IN COLLEGE FOREVER"
not EXACTLY like that but along those lines...
had a coffee meeting today that went relatively well. i seriously AM over it (thank you thank you thank you Jesus!) and now i'm at this... non-place i can't even explain it. theres no emotion. i describe it with a flat swiping motion of my hand *swipes* nothin. i lurve it. it means there is hope of moving past without DWELLING on the past. then i went to Maggay's AWESOME house in Sk3 it's gooorgeoouuus. and i wanna live there. and now for dinner and gospel choir w00t... then... ya know driving home but it'll be ok. :0)
propelling forward feels so good even if it's not where you want it to be right now... you're still moving. i love it.